SINGLEHOOD

“SINGLE isn’t a status. It’s a word describing a person who is strong enough to live and enjoy life without depending on others.”
I had a blog months ago, about singlehood, about a choice to stay single until I finish college. And during those moments in my life, I was so sure that’s what I wanted. You can’t blame me, I was enjoying every second of my life with all my single friends, and I’m having the time of my life. And I think that having a boyfriends isn’t suited for the kind of lifestyle I have. There are few guys whose trying to cling in my fast phased life and I appreciate them but there still weren’t enough reasons to enter into a relationship until recently I felt being left out.
My environment slowly changes, all my “single” friends suddenly found their match. And I swear, I understand them but pathetic as it sounds, I suddenly feel pressured with finding MY match, a partner, someone whom I can have sweet talks and do all those mushy stuffs.
But how about my “self-deal”? And the feeling was rush. It was like, all of a sudden I wanted to give someone a chance in my life, that out of the blue I wanted to be in love. But how I wish it was just that simple. But it isn’t, right?
I can’t suddenly be in love after just deciding that that’s the emotion I wanted to feel. It’s not like that, it will never be “just like that”. Good thing I wasn’t really the “decision-maker” type. So I’ve given the feeling a thought. I’ve talked to a friend and now it’s all clear.
And here’s my realization, It’s all pressure. That after all I still want to stay single, that I don’t need someone to be happier. That if ever I had jump into a relationship, it will never be genuine. That even all my friends have their someone, they won’t leave me behind. That I am happy with myself and that someday someone out there will make me believe in love again without me knowing it beforehand. That my destiny is just waiting to be unfold. And that now my fate is to finish my studies. #

Ps. But that doesn’t stop me from posting pictures, blogs, videos about love. Okay?:)))