when you love a person, you are willing to give the person more than you could. when it comes to him/her, your patience is undeniably looong. you can forgive all his/her shortcomings, mistakes and you accept him/her as a whole. ‘cause they say, when you love someone, you are already loving the whole package. with all the good and the baaaaad stufffs!!!
kaya sobrang nauunawaan naman na kahit na alam mo na lahat ng kalokohan n’yang taong sinasabi mong mahal mo, eh pinapatawad mo pa din s’ya ng paulit-ulit. naiintindihan ko yun. kahit na napapahiya na lang din ako na sinabi ko pa sa’yo yung kasalanan n’ya e sayo pala wala din dating yun. haha. ang funny lang. okay lng naman kasi talaga kasi kaibigan lang namn ako, nakasuporta kung san ka masaya. and its genuine y’know? pero syempre kaibigan mo pa din ako, di maalis na protective ako sa’yo. pero i make sure nmn n sakto lang. kasi at the end, it still you life. YOURS ALONE. ampangit lang minsan (kahit alam kong di mo sinasadya) napapalabas mo na kontrabida na lang ako sa buhay niong nagmamahalan. tsk. pero sige naintidihan ko pa din.
pahabaan na lang ng pasensyaaa. no? pero sa palagay ko talo ko pagdating sa bagay na yaaan. wwwowoooo.
this is a late night-slash-early dawn drama. hoho.
GOODNIGHT everyone. 2;54 am!
Saturday, November 6, 2010
ten pesos!
Life is not really fair.
I was watching “the correspondents” final episode last-last week. The episode was about all the people that had a huge change in their life ever since “the correspondence” featured their life story. It doesn’t caught much of my attention until it featured the story of “araal kids”… and then suddenly my tears fell. The story was about these kids up there in the mountain aging 6-10 years old, that instead of going to school was forced to work in those mining fields. Gather all the araal stones they can and bring them down in the mountains, under the heat of the sun, and with bare feet, just for ten pesos a day. And they have to do go up and down there for 6-8 times before having that ten pesos! Damn!
Their parents don’t like what’s happening but they don’t have the choice. It’s a matter of going through every day with something to eat. Good thing the show have already changed their lives, now those children are going to school.
But I had a big realization with that. I know life is hard. It’s always is. And whatever I, or we do… it will always be unfair. See, the ten pesos that we’re just wasting for nonsense things, for them… it’s an amount to keep them alive. And we are all here in front of the pc, having the time of lives for all the good things, spending our energy and money with vices… what a shame.
I know after writing this thoughts, still, I can’t promise to entirely change my whole life. But after writing this, I know I’ll value my life more. I’ll try to lessen all those “fvcking self pity moments” I occasionally had. I’ll be more and always be thankful that I had this kind of life. It’s far from perfection, but I never had to work that hard to get through my every day food. #
I was watching “the correspondents” final episode last-last week. The episode was about all the people that had a huge change in their life ever since “the correspondence” featured their life story. It doesn’t caught much of my attention until it featured the story of “araal kids”… and then suddenly my tears fell. The story was about these kids up there in the mountain aging 6-10 years old, that instead of going to school was forced to work in those mining fields. Gather all the araal stones they can and bring them down in the mountains, under the heat of the sun, and with bare feet, just for ten pesos a day. And they have to do go up and down there for 6-8 times before having that ten pesos! Damn!
Their parents don’t like what’s happening but they don’t have the choice. It’s a matter of going through every day with something to eat. Good thing the show have already changed their lives, now those children are going to school.
But I had a big realization with that. I know life is hard. It’s always is. And whatever I, or we do… it will always be unfair. See, the ten pesos that we’re just wasting for nonsense things, for them… it’s an amount to keep them alive. And we are all here in front of the pc, having the time of lives for all the good things, spending our energy and money with vices… what a shame.
I know after writing this thoughts, still, I can’t promise to entirely change my whole life. But after writing this, I know I’ll value my life more. I’ll try to lessen all those “fvcking self pity moments” I occasionally had. I’ll be more and always be thankful that I had this kind of life. It’s far from perfection, but I never had to work that hard to get through my every day food. #
SINGLEHOOD
“SINGLE isn’t a status. It’s a word describing a person who is strong enough to live and enjoy life without depending on others.”
I had a blog months ago, about singlehood, about a choice to stay single until I finish college. And during those moments in my life, I was so sure that’s what I wanted. You can’t blame me, I was enjoying every second of my life with all my single friends, and I’m having the time of my life. And I think that having a boyfriends isn’t suited for the kind of lifestyle I have. There are few guys whose trying to cling in my fast phased life and I appreciate them but there still weren’t enough reasons to enter into a relationship until recently I felt being left out.
My environment slowly changes, all my “single” friends suddenly found their match. And I swear, I understand them but pathetic as it sounds, I suddenly feel pressured with finding MY match, a partner, someone whom I can have sweet talks and do all those mushy stuffs.
But how about my “self-deal”? And the feeling was rush. It was like, all of a sudden I wanted to give someone a chance in my life, that out of the blue I wanted to be in love. But how I wish it was just that simple. But it isn’t, right?
I can’t suddenly be in love after just deciding that that’s the emotion I wanted to feel. It’s not like that, it will never be “just like that”. Good thing I wasn’t really the “decision-maker” type. So I’ve given the feeling a thought. I’ve talked to a friend and now it’s all clear.
And here’s my realization, It’s all pressure. That after all I still want to stay single, that I don’t need someone to be happier. That if ever I had jump into a relationship, it will never be genuine. That even all my friends have their someone, they won’t leave me behind. That I am happy with myself and that someday someone out there will make me believe in love again without me knowing it beforehand. That my destiny is just waiting to be unfold. And that now my fate is to finish my studies. #
Ps. But that doesn’t stop me from posting pictures, blogs, videos about love. Okay?:)))
I had a blog months ago, about singlehood, about a choice to stay single until I finish college. And during those moments in my life, I was so sure that’s what I wanted. You can’t blame me, I was enjoying every second of my life with all my single friends, and I’m having the time of my life. And I think that having a boyfriends isn’t suited for the kind of lifestyle I have. There are few guys whose trying to cling in my fast phased life and I appreciate them but there still weren’t enough reasons to enter into a relationship until recently I felt being left out.
My environment slowly changes, all my “single” friends suddenly found their match. And I swear, I understand them but pathetic as it sounds, I suddenly feel pressured with finding MY match, a partner, someone whom I can have sweet talks and do all those mushy stuffs.
But how about my “self-deal”? And the feeling was rush. It was like, all of a sudden I wanted to give someone a chance in my life, that out of the blue I wanted to be in love. But how I wish it was just that simple. But it isn’t, right?
I can’t suddenly be in love after just deciding that that’s the emotion I wanted to feel. It’s not like that, it will never be “just like that”. Good thing I wasn’t really the “decision-maker” type. So I’ve given the feeling a thought. I’ve talked to a friend and now it’s all clear.
And here’s my realization, It’s all pressure. That after all I still want to stay single, that I don’t need someone to be happier. That if ever I had jump into a relationship, it will never be genuine. That even all my friends have their someone, they won’t leave me behind. That I am happy with myself and that someday someone out there will make me believe in love again without me knowing it beforehand. That my destiny is just waiting to be unfold. And that now my fate is to finish my studies. #
Ps. But that doesn’t stop me from posting pictures, blogs, videos about love. Okay?:)))
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I love people. It makes me feel good to be around them. I love to make friends .. and for my 18 years of existence I think I’ve earned a lot to last till my next life time. It may sounds exaggerated but believe me or not, it’s the truth. I’m writing this down not to brag about that but to explain that I may be everybody's friend but I can’t and never will be a ‘good’ friend to everyone. It’s my personality to try to be good to every stranger but I also have the tendency to be at my best and show my worst only to a few great friends I have. Oh, see? I used the term great ‘cause I may call everyone my “best” friend, but I think I can never measure who among them is the good, better or best for me ‘cause everyone is great in their own way. And every friendship I have is different from the other, no one among my friendships will be the same. Because for every friendship, I put a different effort, a different thought, a special feelings, and both of us make memories different to others.
Oh, how I love to make those few great friends smile, feel loved and treasured. <3
And how I hate the feeling deep inside that there are some people whom I have unintentionally taken for granted, and that’s what I’m talking about on how I can never give my best part to every friendship I have. I am sorry. The main reason for making this blog.
If I can only give a piece of me to everyone. If only, I’d gladly do so. I made this public, yeah. But really, this is not intended for them to read. #
Oh, how I love to make those few great friends smile, feel loved and treasured. <3
And how I hate the feeling deep inside that there are some people whom I have unintentionally taken for granted, and that’s what I’m talking about on how I can never give my best part to every friendship I have. I am sorry. The main reason for making this blog.
If I can only give a piece of me to everyone. If only, I’d gladly do so. I made this public, yeah. But really, this is not intended for them to read. #
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