i used to often wonder when my life would truly begin. some people would say it begins the day i was born, but that’s not what i am talking about; that’s not the beginning i'm referring to.
it’s a strange moment, the beginning. right now i was in my teen years. and i tell you, its not easy. for me, everything is so short. life is short, a day is short, a year seems short once its over, and the future is'nt even in the picture. i worry about my friends, i worry about tomorrow, i worry about him, i worry about the guy i always ride the tricycle with…and its all part of the moment. my entire existence is concentrated on everything around me and everyone i know; its depressing. every lil hurdle seems a mountain, every lil problem seems too hard to deal with, and all the bad things that happen to me sometimes mark the end of my life worth living, maybe until my true life begins.
well…how do i exist? im living a lil world that seems so huge! everythings happening around me is huge. now in a month i’ll be over with my firstyear..but until now, my life has no direction. im stil not sure if im going to finish this course.
now all im thinking of is a that i want a career and how much money im goin’ to make but i really cant decide which is which…im thinking so much about my future but i never knew the future.i have no idea what lies ahead of me.
so…how should i finish this? i’ve once read in a book that you should stop writing when there’s nothing left to say, but i think i’ve got one more thing. i suggest that you make your present first before you can have you future. dont be like me. too futuristic to even settle down with the present. too confused.
"THIS WAS MY BLOG A YEAR A GO. :) -18FEB09-"
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