"Facing it all"

"Being happy is not a choice we make but we can do something to be happy." (041809)

i was looking at this notebook (where i keep my thoughts), when i saw this statement i made a year ago and then i was filled with memories. baad memories... but im now over it, thanks to that realization above. and thats when i feel like i want to write something about this.

as stated, happiness is not merely a choice we make for ourself. it is an uncotrollable emotion brought by certain people, things or happenings in our life. if that is so, then we do not controll our whole life alone...'cause life is not all about ME.

so here's the verdict, when someone dissapoints you, when something makes you angry, when someone broke your heart and something depresses you, you cannot just shift emotions.. let alone ignore the feeling, because its undeniably there. you cannot just sit around, continue your life and just decide that after all you are choosing to be happy and expect that its as simple as that. Because a problem not face is a problem not solved.

so whats my point of saying all this? well, i just want you to realize that it is just a matter of facing the problem... of finally admiting that there's a problem and of actually DOING something and of actually DECIDING that you want to be happy but then first you have to heal yourself...and then maybe..maybe finally be able to feel that somehow after all the trouble, you are happy.