trashed.

this is nonsense. haha. so just ignore it. i just need this. for an outlet you know?

its just that for the past few days, i feel trashed. i feel shit. like im the worst person in the world. my world turn UPSIDE DOWN, it was the most stressful days of my life. but i bear with the pain, with the clueless scenario that i am in. im feeling a loser already for the cold treatment and for their actions towards me, ignoring me like i don't exist. so what shall i do? i let them see im strong. that i can still handle the loss.

but after 4 days and 48 hours.. i know i can't take it anymore. i cried a river. i drunk a lot. i blab a lot. they are a part of me. they are important to me. i love them. i'm not mad or anything. i can't be. but with the messages i received, im getting hopeless, hopeless for a second chance, and hopeless that it will ever be the way it was before.. i don't know what to do, so i leave everything to You my Lord.

thank you.